Heart ❤ Vs rational 💭

Have you ever felt like you are surrounded by lots of people but then deep inside you feel empty and all alone? Well if you haven't I guess you are lucky. This type of emotion is definitely not healthy but sometimes you can't help but feel this way like the world has turned it's back on you. All your "friends" surround you everyday and looks like they really care for you but how many of them will notice your smile didn't reach your eyes, that you were not as involves as them and look at you and tell you "Hey, stop trying to act strong it's OK to be not OK sometimes" and not get decieves by the way you act like the way most people thought. There's always a different smile and it means different things. Friends would look at you smile and think that you are happy but the friends who care, who know you well enough, who can look through you lies and the fake appearance you try to portray to the world will look ant your smile and notice the difference. Those are the people who care. It's not easy to find people like that. You may think you've found them but the next moment, just like anyone who wasn't a true friend, that person will just turn there back at you and get decieves by the smile and the laughter.  Since when have we all lost the ability to listen to our heart,  since when have our rational take over every single step, since when have we lost the smile on our face? Though the process of growing up,  we've all changed. Stupid things that we did to follow our heart, taking a step at the time without worry and laugh whenever and where ever we want. We've lost them all. Now we look back at the things we believed as a child, some people will think it is naive and some gullible but no, this are the things that truly matters. When we were young, there we no expectations to be met, no aim,.no worries we followed our heart. This things may not be the smartest things we've done, but it made us, us. One day, we will all grow old and when we look back, do we want to see that our lives is always one with careful calculations everys step is taken with lots of caution and consideration. Or do we want to see a life full or adventure? We may fall and get hurt but it's OK.  Well just have to stand up and start or journey again. I've never said that this path is going to be easy, but what I can promise you is, at the end of this path, there is no regrets there is no "if"s and not "but"s you will look back and smile and how crazy you were but I bet you, you are not going to regret it.